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So, yesterday was Mabon, Fall Equinox or whatever we chose to call it around the globe. The day was ok to begin with, when it came to weather at least, but about midday it was pouring so I felt sort of thankful for not having to get out at that point anyway. Food and dessert didn’t need any more ingredients as far as I could tell then at least.

This is a time for balance, dark and light is equal, but now the light is fading more visibly and we might feel less inclined to start new projects and such. Time for some thinking, going within and figure out what has been done this year so far, second harvest and all. I found several interesting spreads to choose between, but finally decided to go with two spreads and both by Rowan Pendragon/Jess Carlson from her e-book Mabon.

Mabon Let Go

Mabon Let Go

First spread is called Let Go and consists of four cards, top row card 1 and 3, bottom 2 and 4. Simple. Oh, and I picked out The Hidden Realms deck (am I the only one who tends to mix it up with Hidden Path by Raven Grimassi?) that I haven’t used for a while now and this is what I felt it was telling me. Bottom card is Nine of Pentacles and top Strength.

First card is about what needs focus right now, and I got The Lovers. So that might be right actually. And no, I’m not thinking along the lines of I have to find someone new in my life so I will have some love in it. I have love, my daughter, family, friends and lots of others I could start listing here. But no again, I believe that if there is to be a new man in my life it will be one day, time will tell, but I’m not that kind of woman who needs someone to hold my hand and guide me through life. Not yet anyway, come back when I’m old and demented perhaps. No, I think I need to take care of myself more. There has been so many things circling about others needs for a time. Oh yes, I’ve got time to myself it’s not that, it’s more like ok, daughter is still growing, she needs clothes of course, but so do I! At least I need new jeans so I can be around people without apologizing for the patches here and there. I like those jeans, they are so comfy, but sometimes, well, you need to look a little better dresswise. So some more attention to myself might be in place, to show myself that I’m important too.

What can I freely let go of, but I don’t see it? This is Four of Swords, in a RWS deck you would see a figure laying on a marble slab with a sword on top and some other swords hanging or lying around it. Here it’s a young person surrounded by four butterflies that he/she is looking at. I could probably let go of my choice to keep to myself as much. Young one is growing up and spending more time with her friends so I don’t need to be around as much as before. I could take my time to transform my self imposed ”loneliness” and look at the world around me. What do I want to do? Sure I could go around trying to listen to what nature and spirits have to say, but it doesn’t generate much money in the long run if you don’t use it in some way that pays, and I’m not at that level of psychic really. Have to think about this some more actually.

Third card might be of some help then, Two of Pentacles for what still need some clarity. This fairy lies on her tummy resting her chin in her right hand looking at two yellow flowers in front of her. But just as you can see the flowers and the leaves and stem above ground, there is a root system below that sustains them. So it’s not just about finding out the obvious outer things, it’s about things that are hidden or inside of me that needs some more clarity too. Parts of me, but on different levels sort of. What can need clarification that is not just on the outside but also nourishes me inside, my roots? Time to figure out what I can do for a living that would help me feel good and make some use of what I already have inside me, knowledge as well as life experience and my intuition. Where can I find a place to use it for myself and others? I like working with people so there is one thing, just figure out where I could fit in.

Mabon Blasted Beech

Mabon Blasted Beech

Last card in this spread is The Blasted Beech (The Tower) for what I would gain on letting go. Pretty obvious to me at least, and probably for many others who’s been around tarot for some time. Sometimes you have to let go and tear down all belief systems and what you think is good and safe for you. Look at it, and look good, because all your old ruts might not be good for you or carry you forward. You don’t have to make an actual move perhaps to get a change, but change daily habits, get out and look at things in a different way, see what jobs there are out there that you haven’t considered before. But if you’re going out in the rain you better get an umbrella or some clothes that wont leave you soaking wet within five minutes, I’ve been there too.

So, what is it that I should do more for caring and loving myself that also will put focus on my inner and outer needs and can put me on the right path if I’m willing to step outside my boundaries? Who knows, so time to figure it out.

 

The second spread that made me curious is from the same source but is called My Personal Harvest. Same deck again, just more cards. And maybe some additional insight from the first spread. Bottom card Ten of Wands, top card Seven of Pentacles

Mabon My personal harvest

Mabon My personal harvest

2…..3

…1

…4 5…..6

Ah, the bottom card from the first spread is showing up in the first position for where I am now in my personal harvesting season, Nine of Pentacles. A woman who seems to be very content in her garden with a bird sitting on her left hand, apparently used to be there and not afraid of her. Since its a nine it usually signify that you’re at the end of a cycle (I’m not that into numerology so don’t expect any fancy interpretations in that way all of a sudden). So I can be content with what I’ve accomplished so far in many ways. There are still things to harvest but there isn’t as much rush around it right now. This is more a time for reflecting, thinking things through and see if there is something I’m missing or needs to be done a little later. Just be here and now, let things seep in and let whatever messages that are on their way come to you in whatever way they choose to come.

My last big harvest is represented by Life Renewed (Judgement) and this is a young girl with a wreath of leaves and flowers in her hair, or maybe a branch that stretches in front of her forehead so it looks like it is a wreath. She holds her right hand outstretched with an acorn in her palm, and it is sprouting. So apparently I’ve done something right along the way. Young one is growing up, getting more secure and finding her way in the world more and more, I’ve seen all the phases of life from seed to dust, and starting all over again and I’m still here to see that seed grow and making her way. But it’s not just about her, it’s about me feeling that I might be able to take new steps out in the world too after all that happened several years ago. We all act differently, and become affected differently. So time to see what will grow from that acorn, a new oak perhaps, but oaks doesn’t grow where I live so there will be something else perhaps?

The third card is about something I can harvest now and is represented by Four of Wands, a card I usually associate with celebrations, fun and friends, or rituals of some sort. Well, as I write this it is Fall Equinox, daughters birthday isn’t that far away so there will be celebrations. And, oh almost forgot, we are going to a baptizing this weekend! So there will be much joy, relaxed environments and happiness. Ok, we are pagans, but that doesn’t matter since it’s daughters big sis who’s baptizing her first, so of course we have to be there even if she isn’t my biological daughter. Time to meet some people I haven’t seen in person or been in touch with, for a long time.

What can I harvest at Samhain position is The Hanged Man. A man who’s very calm and content as most are. At Samhain I could probably harvest something that required that I took a different view on things, see it from another perspective. In some way finding a new way of looking at my own situation and what I might be able to do about it. Not necessarily rushing into that new way of seeing things, but pondering it, looking inside and adjusting to this new picture of my world.

Another card that comes back from the previous spread, The Blasted Beech (The Tower). But this time it is what I have to put aside for the Winter, so what do you put aside for winter when things are falling down around you? Insight, whatever I find out about myself or anything else in the previous position this is what I can work on during the winter. The things I get a new perspective on and no matter how scary it might feel, I have to deal with it. Apparently it’s an aha moment, but nothing I can or will rush into because it will take time to build up this new foundation and stability. Be prepared to handle this new or changed situation.

Mabon Eight of Pentacles

Mabon Eight of Pentacles

Something I need to sow for next year comes in the form of Eight of Pentacles. An earth card for me but apparently a very fiery and creative card for the creator of this deck. This man stands at a fire with a metal plate of some sort, probably still hot since he’s holding it with a pair of pliers. He looks thoughtful, as if he’s trying to figure out how he feels about this ”medallion” he’s just created. Is it good enough or does it need improvement or change? Make a new one? Put my knowledge and experience to work, find a way to put it to use next year when the seeds are sprouting again. Learn what have to be learnt if something is missing, try and try again if you fail. There is always something new to learn and somehow things will turn out good if I only try and not let fear keep me down and away from the possibilities. Keeping my eyes and ears open for whatever comes my way.

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Just to catch up, here are some of the photos from August. And no, those “spider webs” are not actual spiders I’ve been told, instead it’s some caterpillar and it’s all over the place at those times. Funny enough it always seems to be a very moist and misty day when you really see them, and it gives a little eerie touch to it all. Like you have stepped into a fairytale of some sort. A friend of mine actually said that the faerie’s had their laundry day and hung it up to dry. Of course she was joking, but I sort of like the thought, triggering the imagination of tiny creatures going about their business and trying to finish things up before it’s too cold and winter makes it impossible to do certain stuff because of the temperatures and snow.

The photos of the full moon was taken around 9-9.30pm and my camera isn’t the best with photos late at night with little natural or artificial light so there was a lot of testing and hoping there would be some good ones coming out of it. That evening was really special, so much energy moving around. Felt the presence of many creatures there along the path where I walked. Hearing the waves gently roll and the wind blowing. Magical.

August boat on the river

August boat on the river

August sunshine on the river

August sunshine on the river

August misty morning

August misty morning

August spiderwebs in the forest

August spider webs in the forest

August spiderweb

August spiderweb

August where does it lead?

August where does it lead?

August

August

August birds

August birds

August full moon among the branches

August full moon among the branches

August full moon over water

August full moon over water

August full moon over water again

August full moon over water again

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Or at least some, if my computer will allow. It doesn’t seem to like some new stuff, but it’s old so maybe not a big surprise really, perhaps I can find someone among my friends who’s good at stuff like this and it will be better. So, here are some photos to begin with, July this time. Thinking that if I add photos like these monthly I will make it easier to remember what month I have added or not.

July Trush eggs

July Trush eggs

July moss

July moss

July mushroom

July mushroom

July summer flowers along the road

July summer flowers along the road

July Bluebells

July Bluebells

July cat watching from the attic

July cat watching from the attic

July see the little spider?

July see the little spider?

July sleepy cat

July sleepy cat

July late evening walk

July late evening walk

July late walk

July late walk

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